cycles. it's the way of the world, isn't it?

yep, up and down. i'm sorry my dear friends.

Nick Lachey ~ I Can't Hate You Anymore
An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream,
It drives you crazy.

I chased away the shadows of your name,
And burned the picture in a frame,
But it couldn't save me.
And how could we quit something we never even tried,
Well you still can't tell me why.

We built it up,To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,You stole my life,
Just to find what you were looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore....
I can't hate you anymore.
You're not the person who you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,
There's only so many tears that you can cry.
Before it drains the light right from your eyes,
And I can't go on that way.
And so I'm letting of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

We built it up,To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,You stole my life,
Just to find what your looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.

Sometimes you hold so tight,
It slips right through your hands.
Will I ever understand?

We built it up,To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,You stole my life,
Just to find what your looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.

i suddenly lost my words. sorry, i have to replace them with what others sing.

finally, a song, that is really what i can say.

安靜An jing

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
睡著的大提琴
安靜的舊舊的
我想你已表現的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你沒有捨不得

你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著我也只是曾經
希望她是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開

你要我說多難堪
我根本不想分開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
我沒有這種天份
包容你也接受她
不用擔心的太多
我會一直好好過

你已經遠遠離開
我也會慢慢走開
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你

我真的沒有天份
安靜的沒這麼快
我會學著放棄你
是因為我太愛你
http://multistars.com/jaychoustudio/Translations_Scripts/Silence.html (thank you!)

although, i cannot say, like it says, that i'd live well,
but as i said to you, i will try.
then again. i always fall back into this pit don't i?

thank you.

thank you. best friend. for being there.
thank you, dearie, for dinner the night before, and not judging me though i have failed miserably.
thank you, my cool babes, for trying to cheer me up. you guys did.

thank you, the one who once wanted to give me everything. you did. i'm sorry i didn't.

best friend, i don't know how long i can put everything behind the door. it seems the room behind the door is too small. or maybe the door is too big... i can't seem to hold it down. oh how.

for now, i'll just exist.

Why does the sun go on shining?

Why does the sea rush to shore?

Don't they know it's the end of the world,

'Cause you don't love me any more?

Why do the birds go on singing?

Why do the stars glow above?

Don't they know it's the end of the world.

It ended when I lost your love.

I wake up in the morning and I wonder,

Why everything's the same as it was.

I can't understand. No, I can't understand,

How life goes on the way it does.

Why does my heart go on beating?

Why do these eyes of mine cry?

Don't they know it's the end of the world.

It ended when you said goodbye.

Why does my heart go on beating?

Why do these eyes of mine cry?

Don't they know it's the end of the world.I

t ended when you said goodbye.

i don't wish to wake. not anymore.

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion
Is nothing new
Flashback
warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcases of memories,
Time after

Sometimes you picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me,
I can't hear
What you've said

Then you say
go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look
and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you
I'll be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows
i'm wondering
Ifyou're OK
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time

If you're lost you can look
and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you
I'll be waiting
Time after time

You said go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds
If you're lost you can look
and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you
I'll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time..

Cyndi Lauper ~ Time after Time

i'll be, always, the greatest fan of your life.

Edwin McCain
I'll Be

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

I've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, remembered the things you said

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

please come back.

Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed.

~Storm Jameson

because it's something we both cannot fight against, when one gives up.

and this will not remain forever,
however it's beautiful
your eyes, hand and your warm smile,
they're my treasure
it's hard to forget

i wish there was a solution
don't spend your time in confusion
i'm turn back now and spread

my broken wings,
still strong enough to cross the ocean with
my broken wings,
how far should i go drifting in the wind
across the sky just keep on
flying..

did i ever chain you down to my heart?
cos i was afraid of you
now i can't hold back any longer
love is not a toy
let go of me now.
the time we spend is perpetual
our future is not real
i'll leap into the air with

my broken wings
still strong enough to cross the ocean with
my broken wings
how far should i go drifting in the wind
across the sky just keep on
flying..

~broken wings
Tane Tomoko

because my words can no longer express my pain.
24.08.2006~my wings are destroyed. i can't ever fly. i just pray you'll come back. soon.